January Blahs

Here we are in the third full week of January, and I have yet to complete a 2011 project.  Life has been very difficult as of late.  I suffered a huge setback in my career a few months back, and I am afraid I am still not handling it well.  I keep thinking the cloud over my head will lift, but it has not yet and now I am afraid that my anger and grief are causing me to sabotage my career even further.

Add to this that all of New England is frozen and I have been on a totally yeast-free diet for the past two weeks, and I seem to have lost the will to knit!

In truth, I did finish the back and one sleeve of a sweater I started in Oct 2008 (I am SO embarrassed to admit that it has been sitting that long).  The second sleeve will probably only take an evening or two, but I have not picked that up for a week either. Even if I did, it would not count towards my sock yarn goal.

What is a knitter with a horribly huge stash to do?  I need a serious infusion of inspiration and motivation.  So how do you reignite your passion for work and for craft?

I have been sitting and staring at the same skein of yarn--already wound--for three weeks now.  It is a lovely skein of STR with colors that variegate from mango to purple.  You can see a pic (recycled from an old post) below.



It is the pretty one on the bottom right.  The other two have actually been knit up and gifted already.

  I fell in love with this at first sight, but I am at a loss for what to do with it.  Let me explain; while I love the brilliant colorways of STR, I have issues with how they knit up.  While the fabric is fabulous beyond compare, the brilliant colors seem to compete with all but the most simple stitch patterns.  Thus, despite many, many swatches, nearly all my multi-colored STR gets knit into basic 2x2 rib or straight stockinette socks. 

But this skein just does not want to be a 2x2 basic rib sock.  This skein needs to be something special.  I need to create something beautiful with it, if for no other reason than to get me through 2 more weeks of yeast-free eating, and the fact that I feel like a failure in my career and my personal life right now.  Did I mention that yeast-free eating involves giving up not only all breads and carbs, but also dairy, vinegar, mayonaise, and (gasp!) diet coke?  I did cheat slightly tonight when my room service salad came with a creamy dressing rather than the oil and lemon juice I ordered.  I am overcome with guilt, and this does not help the feelings of failure.  So I really need to make a fabulous sock this week!

Next post: how to rekindle inspiration.  This gives me something to research over the next few days.  Happy knitting in 2011, everyone!